still series project (click to see)
de_myelization
painting series, 2023
ongoing series, that works on how trauma influences the brain structure. in some cases of post traumatic stress disorder, the myelin of axon membran can be damaged, what can results in the lost of memory.
amoeba crisis (intelligence does not need a brain but crisis does)
digital work based on film still, 2023
spinn-off of the ‚amoeba series‘. (eu)mycetoza are unicellular just as the amoeba is. being only one cell it can extent itself to 5 qm2. it has no brain, but it has the ability to remember and sometimes it hesitates, which is a very humanlike characteristic before deciding things like where to go. it is intelligent. and still, it does not know what crisis is.
amoeba series
painting series and digitalworks based on the painting, 2021
ongoing interdisciplinary project, that used the concept of unicellar beings as a metaphor of psychological growth based on trauma.
translation of a cinematic depiction of (persecution-) fear in and through the painting process (created as part of a performance in the film "gänsehaut" (2021) by ole walkowitsch)
The unconscious part of one being, the part of us holding the everlasting human experience. Sometimes we call it Soul.
An incorperal figure staring at fragments of life like through pieces of glass. If it was perceptible, it would look like dancing fog dam up in the valley and it would smell like ocean water.
From the left side is where she comes from. She is the seed planted in the heart, the one Embryosa waiting to be born.
She is still a homunculus, her left hand is deformed with the head. But she already has the light and the glow to burst out of the cell soon enough. Her wisdom lies in knowing that while waiting for it with patience.
torn rawness II
in the act of the raw flesh, i was torn like a gazelle
when it comes all together
was passiert, wenn sich das, was übrig bleibt zusammen tut?
strom, der zu fläche wird
Atem, der aufbäumt
Erhöhung im Rausch
In Kraft, fließend
fläche
still series, I
digital work based on a film still, 2023
to rip out a single frame of the film and change it through digital editing, stands as an analogy to how memories are fragmentated or torn apart throught trauma and how perception will be disrupted while dissocating processes as a result of this.
still series, II
digital work based on a film still, 2023
since i was a child, i would be absorbed in a dreamy way of perceiving the world around me, since today I am getting lost in structures, in the branching of a tree, in the glitter of watery surfaces. this is a part of my personality, which might be enjoyable. but there is a connection between this trance state and dissociative processes. drifting away comes then as a freezing reaction to triggering situations and it is less controllable and impedes me in my daily life. through an artistic perspective, i builded a relationship between my dreaminess and my dissociation disorder. to explore this artistically releases the pathological tension - through connecting it with the concept of dreaming I will put this dissociative status outside of the frame “illness”.
dreams, displace, dissolve
digital work based on a film still, 2023
intimacy, invasion
digital work based on photography/film still, 2023
invasion, inbody
digital work based on film stills, 2023
painting series, 2023
ongoing series, that works on how trauma influences the brain structure. in some cases of post traumatic stress disorder, the myelin of axon membran can be damaged, what can results in the lost of memory.
amoeba crisis (intelligence does not need a brain but crisis does)
digital work based on film still, 2023
spinn-off of the ‚amoeba series‘. (eu)mycetoza are unicellular just as the amoeba is. being only one cell it can extent itself to 5 qm2. it has no brain, but it has the ability to remember and sometimes it hesitates, which is a very humanlike characteristic before deciding things like where to go. it is intelligent. and still, it does not know what crisis is.
You cannot stand Ambiguity: You enjoy it.
So the Amoeba. Only by constant shaping, she can move.
translation of a cinematic depiction of (persecution-) fear in and through the painting process (created as part of a performance in the film "gänsehaut" (2021) by ole walkowitsch)
The unconscious part of one being, the part of us holding the everlasting human experience. Sometimes we call it Soul. An incorperal figure staring at fragments of life like through pieces of glass. If it was perceptible, it would look like dancing fog dam up in the valley and it would smell like ocean water.
From the left side is where she comes from. She is the seed planted in the heart, the one Embryosa waiting to be born. She is still a homunculus, her left hand is deformed with the head. But she already has the light and the glow to burst out of the cell soon enough. Her wisdom lies in knowing that while waiting for it with patience.
torn rawness II
in the act of the raw flesh, i was torn like a gazelle
when it comes all together
was passiert, wenn sich das, was übrig bleibt zusammen tut?
strom, der zur fläche wird
Atem, der aufbäumt
Erhöhung im Rausch
In Kraft, fließend
fläche